i dont know when im gonna do a next full drawing, maybe on the weekend, but my midterms begin in literally less than two weeks. my plan of going about things is spending my time studying and watching some animes ive been delaying for years. trust me, i have ideas for drawings, i just don't have the time or motivation to do them.. also i purposefully left my drawing tablet at back home so i couldnt draw (so i could focus more on studying). So far, the college material isnt anything too difficult, im just a bit... slow. While it would be really awesome for me to go to a college that does what i want to do (anything remotely creative), this is the one im stuck with and my parents dont see anything else as "worthy". It's a shame that everything i want to do HAS to go through them, like im still 13 or something. I wonder how they're gonna act once i actually get to an "you're a full blown adult, if you're not able to live with only your own decisions, you will die" age.
P.S. : The only thing giving me happiness and hope is when i actually get to studying and when i UNDERSTAND what im studying, which then reminds me that if i do actually manage to pass the exams and finish this college i'll be smarter and have a diploma that'll "get me a good job". Just hoping i also manage to become more efficient in studying so i have more free time for art and friends is all. And for my parents to stop seeing me as a child. My opinions matter too.
